As a songwriter/artist, being able to take a musical idea from conception to completion is incredibly rewarding, and even with all the roadblocks I encountered, it has brought me so much fulfillment. Looking back on what I have achieved so far, I have accomplished many of the goals I set since getting back into the music game.
So why can’t I just stop here and be satisfied?
It’s the tortured artist effect, I guess. In wanting to share this music, I’ve come to the realization that what comes next may be the hardest of all: Getting the music out there.
A lot has changed since my younger days when I was a professional musician. I find I am struggling with what I want to do, what I can do, what I am willing to put up with, and what the scene will allow me to do. I know I can’t tour the country for months at a time, and, even if I could, the thought of having to listen to the other guys in the band snore night after night could wear thin on even the most stout-hearted soul. I’d prefer not to play in restaurants that have no interest in live music—except to move around some tables in the corner at 10 pm, because they know a band will bring in friends who will run up a bar tab. Besides, going on at 10 pm and playing until 2 am, when I know my audience needs to get home to babysitters (or are tired out) by 11 pm, usually means playing to an empty room by the fifth song. Playing live, at least here in New Jersey, seems to be better suited for the younger bands and their crowds. I believe there’s an audience that agrees that age is not a barrier to creativity, but, so far, I am having a hard time finding venues that share this philosophy.
Another challenge I’m facing is just how difficult it is to sell my music. I’m not about talking millions, but I did hope that 200 of my closest friends and family (LOL) would buy some tracks from iTunes! Unfortunately, I’m discovering that middle agers, for the most part, just don’t buy music anymore. I understand that in this over-saturated, non-regulated market place called the new music scene, it is hard to stand out amongst the masses. I can only hope that my gray hairs stick out amongst the pixels enough to intrigue people to give me a listen.
Brian Druck lives in New Jersey with his wife and daughter.
Brian's music can be heard at http://briandruxproject.com and https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/better-with-age-ep/id814833252?uo=4